Less than a year ago, I was unemployed (for over a year total), struggling with having a toddler and a newborn and just feeling like I wasn't cut out to be a SAHM. I started working PT in January and am off 7 days out of every 14. After I got used to working again, I realized I really enjoy being home on my days off. I'm still not the best at housework/cleaning but most days I don't really mind cleaning. It's nice having a clean house when we go to bed! I'm meal planning like crazy and have even starting baking/making new meals every week. The kis and I go to the library every Thursday and I try to do new projects with Hannah. I'm finally enjoying being a homemaker!
I've realized my problem last year was that I was under so much stress trying to find a job that I just couldn't focus on enjoying being home. Now I have more of a plan and I'm really glad I decided to go back to school to be a nurse. Not only will I be doing what I love (hopefully working with babies in the NICU) but I'll be able to be with my kids and trying to give them the best home life possible!
I feel so much better that I'm at least heading in the right direction. It's not easy having kids so young (I had just turned 21 when I had Hannah.) but I think I'm starting to finally figuring out how to balance things!
Though I gotta say, you have to have a lazy day once in a while...hence the pile of clean laundry sititng next to me waiting to be folded while I write this!! LoL